I am going to Batam!

Will be leaving on a short trip to batam tomorrow till monday. I am a rupiah millionaire. haha. Need all the blessings from God to protect me for a safe trip. All I want to do is return safely to Singapore and not get held up as a hostage. 

Today as I was looking at the daily bread, it mentioned something about being a sunday christian. Food for thought. =) What is being a christian to you? Are you living God's will or your will? Is going to church and saying a short prayer a day all it means to be a christian? 

A personal relationship with him. and maybe that's the answer.

love, 

grace 

In his time, he made all things beautiful

This morning when I woke up to go toilet weewee, my mother handed me a planner for 2009.

I took it, said my thanks and went back to bed, thinking I could continue my sleep. After tossing around for 10minutes or so, I got up, took the planner, sat down at the table and filled in everything I knew was going to happen in 2009. And the only things I know are my lesson dates and assignment due dates. I filled it in and finally I reached November 2009. My lessons end there and so the degree comes. Its daunting actually to know that, within the next year or so, my blood pressure may go up just to rush out assignments that I don't seem to do very well in. 

I have this bugging, nagging and whatever you call it feeling that 2009 is going to be a huge challenge, even greater than this year when I rushed my diploma finals and started on the degree all at the same time. Sometimes I don't ever want 2008 to end. There is approximately 1 month left to the end of the year and I wonder whether I have done my best. 

But hey, you know what, everything was in God's plan.. My human standards on the good and the bad things, were all in his plan, his plan to make me a stronger person, to draw closer to him. Someone once told me that, being a christian doesn't make your life go all smooth sailing, but in fact, makes your life a tougher journey. Then you may ask, so if God is so almighty why do you go through all these? He could have just easily carried you out of the situation. I remember once when my smc shared with the std4s the parable of the pencil. I thought probably I shared it with you too. You might have heard it somewhere sometime in your life, but let it be a reminder to always trust in him no matter what happens, that in his time, and in his eyes, all these are perfect. 

and yes final words from the video, you were made to do great things if you keep trusting in him and walking with him.

Zechariah 4:6 

"Not by might nor by power but by my Spirit" says the Lord God Almighty

in his blessings, 

grace

He holds my Hand

Probably it wasn't a coincidence that I am here today. 

I am just an average kid, i'm 18. I have never opened my blog to public for the past few years as I am a very private person. But in faith, I set this up, i don't know what will turn out of it, but I hope it sustains.

I was once someone who slipped, who left, who was only seeking God whenever I needed help. I am still learning, still growing in God. 

I go to church but I got irritated by blogs that talked about God and everything like that. I hated it, because I knew I wasn't close to him. I kept questioning myself about this bugging feeling, how could I feel like this, I wasn't supposed to. I could never bring myself to draw close to him, cos there was always something that hindered me. Something that always told me, hey i can do it myself, I don't need God. I will go to him later if i can't do it myself, probably in the later part of the day, probably tomorrow, probably when I have 15mins of time to spare before I go to bed or something. 

I spend a whole lot of time on the internet and yes I choose not to do my devotion to spend more time on the internet, chatting on msn, surfing blogs, reading articles. But still, it was through the internet that God called me back. He knows how much songs can reach into the depths of my heart and thus he send me a song, a song named still on youtube.

I've been through a lot of things, a lot of things I can't pen down. But God stood by me through the times when i needed him and when i thought I didn't need him. He has led me through a path of difficulties, but there were always people who loved him who were in my life. 

This journey is tough, but I know God will hold my hand, Nevertheless I am continually with You; You hold me by my right hand (Psalm 73:23)

in his blessings, 

grace